Who is my Totem?

Animals and birds have been visiting me for a couple years now. Many in my dreams and much more in person. They always have a message for me. I have heard it said that your lifelong Animal totem can be an obvious thing. It has not been for me. When they come it is usually in droves. For days, weeks or months at a time they come. They come within 6 ft. of me and visit sometimes up to 3 hrs. They even allow me to take photos. Bear, Eagle,Owl,Flicker.You name it. Dreams include being dropped by Redtail Hawk as he carries me in his talons. I am Rattlesnake dropped from his talons to the dirt beside another. I must convince this rattlesnake I am one or be bitten. I passed the test. I have been slammed into a pack of wolves by a Native Spirit man and made to fight and defeat a shadow wolf. I did. Redtail hawk has taken me out of dreams when the fear is great. I know I can call on him.White Bear has come in my dreams. These are just a few. I can’t figure out who is my totem. There must be one but All stand out. I study and honor all that come. I accept the medicine they offer but still have to wonder who my Totem actually is.

Jim B.